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if you want to find me.
andyadayada.blogspot.com
that's it folks.
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| this is bullshit! |
[07 Feb 2009|08:21am] |
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Dear Saturday Morning,
It's 8AM &I'm as awake as the irksome birds outside my 2nd floor apartment window.
I should be hung over like a normal HardWorkingTaxPayingCityLivingSingleGirl, &yet here I am achefree &perfectly aware of last night's happenings.
To sum them up; Nothing.
So here I am with another chance at late night inebriation &I sit in my bed, still in jam jams, au courant &utterly enlightened at what the impending night holds.
To sum it up; Nothing.
Why?
Simple! Having a life is usually costly. &A costly life usually requires handsome pay checks.
&handsome pay checks usually are earned from important jobs.
&important jobs are impossible to come by...especially for silly little girls.
So, Don'tMatter Day (as i so often use to call it), you have finally earned your title.
I don't care about you or if you came at all!
Good Riddance,
Stefany
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| this is losing... |
[15 Jan 2009|06:14am] |
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Architecture in Helsinki |
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Dear Ex Lovers, You have inspired me completely against sentimentalism &romance.
That, &your poor choice in recent lovers have made me seriously question my own quality.
I will now need extensive therapy &analytical observation so that I can better understand my requisition for ego centric, manipulative, idiotic dirt bags such as the lot of you. Bitterly,
Stefany
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| Make an angel in the snow...And Freeze. |
[07 Jan 2009|02:13pm] |
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Dr. Dog-Oh No. |
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I am in such disbelief at how quickly time has been going.
It seems to be going doubly as fast from what I'm used to.
I especially can't believe I moved to Philadelphia a year &eight days ago.
I still remember shivering with my two suit cases outside a door marked "508" that New Year's Eve.
I was SO scared.
&All because Philly was the first city under Orange County on craigslist.
&because I liked Becky's taste in music.
Sometimes I think being crazy is the smartest thing to be.
You make those dangerous choices that sane people wouldn't &in doing so never miss out on the opportunities that come from it.
I Love my life even though it's still so hard.
&I Love every block of my incredible city.
I am still becoming; there's still much to do.
But I am so happy right now it feels as if everything's completely right.
What a Wonderful Adventure--My Life.
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| this is celebrating... |
[31 Dec 2008|08:40pm] |
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Dr. Dog//Fate |
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Dear Midnight,
So many people are waiting for you.
We are going to state allowed our hopes &promises for an entire year that starts with you.
&When you finally show up we'll all be aware. We'll clink glasses &kiss each other on the mouth.
&even in conversation or mid dance we will silently hope our whole lives change.
Or stay the same.
Whatever each of us will be promising or looking forward to, swearing against, embracing or changing...
We'll find ourselves surrounded by who we have discovered over the years, or year, have been the most important.
&i will stay with them until Midnight,on til morning &on to this year to come.
One last night together then tomorrow I'll be gone.
It almost makes me wish you'll forget to show up.
But you won't since you can't, so because that's the way it is, come &bring with you a joyful New Year.
Everyone is waiting.
See you soon,
Stefany
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| this is loving... |
[30 Dec 2008|04:31pm] |
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Dear Time (God, fate, whatever &ever), You took my brother's grandfather &I suppose you had your reasons.
My precious grandmother cried an awful lot; grieving, but also because of her own self awareness.
I just ask (pray) that you give her a lot more of you...
I'll gladly take ten years off of my line to give to hers...not sure if you even make those kind of deals..
You see, I just don't think I can handle knowing there's one less angel on earth.
Afterall, she's the only one I've ever known.
Graciously,
Stefany Kathren Vargas
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| People aren't suppose to look back. |
[04 Dec 2008|11:14pm] |
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Brand New Start-Little Joy |
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Allow me one more sad post.
I feel completely worthless &I think I've always felt that way.
Okay, I said it.
Now, in the words my father taught us to live by...
"SHAKE IT OFF!"
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| As I age my red wine collection (or try to) I sit &think... |
[02 Dec 2008|07:08pm] |
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How Deep is Your Love-The Bird &the Bee |
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it's December &I can't believe it.
It's snowed a couple times but none of it has really stuck.
I watched the leaves turn &fall &now they're all on cement instead of trees.
I'm exhausted...
Life is so expensive when you only have you.
I'm wondering when people outside of philadelphia will discover &love Dr. Dog.
But then they will charge for their concerts &leave the city &i won't have a reason to freeze outside.
Which brings me to, I have strep. Again.
Luckily my boyfriend's mother is a doctor. She gave me drugs.
Speaking of boyf.
We will be in California in a matter of weeks.
I'm excited for him to come meet my family...
Maybe he'll understand me a bit more.
I need a break too...this city strug is getting me down.
But my darling christmas tree has been cheering me up.
Along with my bamboo plant, my Blue dog, &my beautiful monora.
All of them are telling me there's life &holiday spirit everywhere.
&no matter how annoying it can be...it really is the greatest time of year.
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| Go listen to Skeletal Lamping. Don't know what I'm talking about? Let me lay some knowledge on you.. |
[02 Oct 2008|02:20am] |
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St. Exquisite's Confession//Skeletal Laming. |
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Welly Well,
Updatey alright.
Cory's been here. Immidiately when he got here we had to go see Circa Survive.
Being that it's Anthony's home town it was crazy...good. "Philly BABBY OH SHIT"
Then a few nights later, as in last night, we saw Pinback.
-Incredible.
Seriously played everything I needed to hear (aside from concrete seconds, but that's okay)
It was awesome I wish everyone could have seen it so you all knew what I was going on about.
&Tomorrow we three (Neil, Cory &I) leave for NY for a 3 day stay.
After all, it's some Italian beauty's birthday weekend.
I play tennis everyday now.
I have a dog named Blue now.
New Of Montreal is ridiculous.
I think that's it. Kbye &have a nice weekend type thing.
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| It may have just been the best concert in the park I've ever been to. |
[18 Aug 2008|05:19pm] |
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Dr. Dog. |
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I don't wanna fight.
I don't see the point, we will never get it right.
So what do you think in the middle of the night?
When you're all alone...
Will you pick another town?
Then pick up and leave once you burn your bridges down
Until the point where you're sleeping on the ground
And the whole world is out of your reach.
Well you learn how to talk.
Like a baby you learn to walk the walk
But in the end it's just you in the dark
Did you learn who you are?
Who you are
Who you are
Well something broke that i can't seem to mend
Cause somethings break before they bend
I hope there's love at the end of your day
To take you away
When you tell a lie
Can you look in the mirror and see it in your eye?
Who do you fool with the things that you hide?
Is it for your sake or mine?
Well I can't wear your shoes
They just wouldn't fit, I got too much to lose
By walking so fast that you can't pick and choose...
The people you walk on....
I know an old band
And I know your face like the back of my hand
And I hope that maybe you understand
That I don't know who you are
Anymore
Anymore
Well somethings go that I can't seem to mend
And somethings break before they bend
I hope there's love at the end of your day
To take you away...
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| This is leaving... |
[14 Aug 2008|03:16pm] |
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DR. DOG |
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Dear Carefree California,
My Boss always called it "La La Land"
&I never saw it that way, that is, until I left &came back.
You really do have a whimsical charm about you.
It's been a ton of fun, but now it's time for real life.
Hope you understand.
See you when fall goes...
La La La, Stefany
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| this is not prioritizing... |
[19 Jun 2008|02:19pm] |
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viva la vida. |
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Dear Transformers 2 Cast &Crew,
It was nice chatting with people about California since everybody chats Philly shit all the time &I harldy can chime in.
However, you calling it "The OC" &walking in with your eclectic styles &fancy gadgets didn't help my "it's not really like that..." case.
You should know I fattened up all your non-fat sugarfree bull shit drinks.
Indifferently, Stefany
PS. That doesn't go for you Best Boy Grip. I'd make you your Tall Soy Hot Chocolate anytime, ever.
Double PS. sans whip, of course.
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Why would you ask me to join you &the other trout?
You know I've never been a strong swimmer, see.
No, you know where I belong.
Tumbling over rocks &out smarting grizzly bears.
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| this is really fighting... |
[27 May 2008|11:44am] |
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HEY ARNOLD |
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Dear NBC front desk high horse man,
Thanks for the panic attack &for making me cry by telling me i couldn't go see my best friend on Conan.
&thank you for simoteanously encouraging me to give up on myself all because i was 15 minutes late.
Oh &thank you for not believing me when i said my best friend is the musical guest.
But most importantly thank you for the face you had on when my best friend, rather, Conan's musical guest came down to bring me up with him &for shutting up while you printed me out my back stage pass.
Enthusiastically, Stefany
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| Talking Bird//Narrow Stairs |
[22 May 2008|02:06am] |
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DCFC |
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Oh, my talking bird
though you know so few words
they're on infinite repeat
like your brain can't keep up with your beat.
and you're kept in an open cage
so you're free to leave or stay.
sometimes you get confused
like there's a hint i am trying to give you.
the longer you think, the less you know what to do.
it's hard to see your way out
when you live in a house in a house
cause you don't realize
that the windows were open the whole time.
Oh, my talking bird
Though your feathers are tattered and furled
I'll love you all your days
till the breath leaves your delicate face.
It's all here for you as long as your choose to stay.
It's all here for you as long as you don't fly away.
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| this is gratitude... |
[20 May 2008|10:28pm] |
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The Ice Is Getting Thinner-DCFC |
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Dear Fraid,
Pizza &Cheesesteaks that makes one climax.
Shots, Painting &Bleach...the others follow due to the first.
Chinatowns...
Mojito's &Sushi.
A New York bar with an amazing girl who also came from silly Orange County.
Crepes that blew my mind &rain in Little Italy.
Taxis, Metros, Buses, Trains.
Downtown, Uptown, FUCK Downtown again.
Chinatowns....
Making the last train smiling &waving cuz what could be said?
I love you &miss you &can't wait to see you next.
That's what my smile meant.
Forever Yours, Stefany
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| this is stealing time... |
[11 May 2008|08:51pm] |
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DVD: TWIN PEAKS (who killed laura palmer?!) |
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Dear Bong &Planet Earth,
Hey, thanks for this weekend,
You two make quite the pair.
Love, Stefany
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| this is never knowing... |
[09 May 2008|05:05pm] |
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You Are Chains-The Secret Machines |
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Dear Uncle Sam,
I haven't seen you at one of the family dinners.
So stop taking all my damn money.
Love, Stefany
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| this is counting blessings... |
[08 May 2008|03:46pm] |
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city sounds outside my second floor apt. window. |
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Dear Life,
Okay, Alright...
Love, Stefany.
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